Anyone expierienced or is expeiriencing something like this? If so, what did you do ?

Hmmmmm! For one thing, you are not stupid child, quit telling yourself that you are! Be proud of who you are, God made us all different for a reason and all are special and beautiful in his eyes, take your problems to God, he will see you thru it with flying colors, all you have to do is talk to him, he hears every word and every thought, go to him in prayer daily and talk to God, youll be suprised how much it helps!