Someone help. I'm just about ready to end it.?

Don't think that way! Theres always a reason to live!! If I were you and I new there would be nothing for me at home I would run away to a counselor or to a good family member or friend or somebody and then chilax. You could get your dad takin into rehab and ya I don't even want to think of seeing you with a knife in your hand! I just think you should run away somewhere safe and away from your father and ex.